Tonight, I’m preparing for a softball game and for some reason it doesn’t matter how comfortable I get on the field I get nervous.   So let me set this up a little better.  I’ve been playing softball for about 3 years and it’s competitive but not so much so that someone’s gonna really freak out at you if you make a mistake but yet, I still get nervous before I play!

I play left field and I’m convinced that I’m always going to drop the first ball that’s hit my way and that the coach is going to hit me with a baseball bat or that he’ll just take me out and sit me on the bench.  It’s softball, why does it matter so much?  The only thing I have going for me on the team is my defense.  I’m a terrible batter and I’m always lucky if I get the ball out of the infield.  Yeah, I suck!  But, on the defensive end I still get really nervous before the games even though that’s the only thing I’m good at doing!

I’ve grown up playing sports my whole life and yet I can’t get my head together or my nerves when I play sports.  I remember a time when I was playing a tennis tournament at the age of 13 and after I lost a point I dropped my racket to the ground.  Well, my mother wasn’t exactly very impressed so she up and left me!!  Yeah!!  I didn’t ‘throw’ the racket, just dropped it and I got the whole, ‘I’m leaving because I’m disappointed in you’ treatment.  Needless to say, I don’t exactly have control of my head or my nerves when playing sports.  I mean, it’s not that big of a deal!  My mind doesn’t exactly buy that for some reason.  It’s a constant battle.

I’ve decided. I’ve got nerves of soft tissues!!

-Luke